Out of control

I'm not sure that the path I choose whether it's right or wrong. I have always believed that  I will have to follow my dreams. Although it would be difficulf and I always believed that it would be possible.
I love my life now, everything is simply slowly and beautiful. Sometime I feel that life is too ridiculous damn......

I can told you that I have no idea about my future job because there are a few things that I  want to do in my life such as fashion, food, travel, and music. If everything in the world is no limit to the money and  wasn't born an Easterner, I just have more freedom right now.

I tried and wanna cry. I can't say anything because no one can truth. I have many fear in my mine and think I might be crazy.  I just a girl that ready to flying and tell everyone "I'm fine".

Finally, I just want someone can tell me that " You do it right and move on, I truth in you."  or  " Don't be afraid I always beside you" There is only God that tells me like that.

I want answers of my life because everytime I asked, I never got good answer back.